So lately I've been down in the dumps.. so I decided to write things that put a smile on my face:
Finding an old photo
Reminiscing
Hearing a kind word about myself
A first kiss
Turning on the radio at the exact same time your favorite song comes on
Winning a raffle
Reading and writing
Morning texts
Falling asleep with sand in my hair
The gulf
Being tan
Thanksgiving meals
Lending a hand
I think I'll keep this post active and jot down more in a little bit... <3
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
Dream of 6/8/2009
So last night, I could barely sleep. I watched Titanic until I finally passed out (around 1230am) Anyways, I had one of the most realistic dreams ever! I felt the need to blog about it and then I will add some of the ideas dreamdictionary.com has for the key aspects of it.
Alright, I can't 100% say where it started out, but I was feeling fine in my dream with some of my friends. I then realized that my throat was starting to close up a little bit, but I ignored it since every once in a while I usually get sore throats and they go away. Suddenly I realize that the bottom of my throat is swollen (like huge, 6in at least out of my neck) and super super sore to the touch (think stinging pain) anyways I then realize that my throat/tongue is swollen almost to the extent of not being able to breathe. I then too realize that my nose is stuffy but thankfully I can breathe a little bit through it. I suddenly start freaking out showing the people I'm with ( I can't remember who it was) but my main concern was to get ahold of Electra and let them know what was happening. So a little bit later, after the initial freak out,the swelling starts to go down and I start to feel a little better. I, for some reason, ended up at this outside picnic area with a bunch of people sitting at or around benches. I had my new laptop with me and about the time I noticed the swelling coming back, and the stinging pain coming along, I dropped my laptop in the sand. All of a sudden some guy comes up and tries to take it, I freak out, but can't barely say anything because of my throat, so he just starts scratching the cover of it and then proceeds to start scratching the back of it and dropping sand into the hard drive. I start crying and my throat pain gets worse, and so finally I get ahold of someone to take me to the hospital, and I start texting people letting them know whats happening (because I seriously thought I was dying) anyways, I start to notice that my lower back is starting to swell just like underneath my throat was, and stinging really bad to the touch. I don't know what exactly happened on my way to the hospital, but we took a side trip to take me back home because my stepdad was there and I wanted him to see my throat and help me. So, I'm standing in my room,and in walks my mother. Now in real life my mother is a Nurse and follows doctors orders and takes us to the doctors etc, but in my dream she was totally against getting my medicine and wanted to do natural healing on me. As well as her walking in with some natural book, she is surrounded by a bunch of jumping puppies. I'm trying to tell her, with my throat swollen shut, that I don't need her help and that I'm in a lot of pain etc, but shes not listening to me and the puppies keep jumping up to nearly my throat, all crazy like. Finally I get her to leave, and I tell thom (my stepdad) what had happened. Thats when I wake up. What a weird dream!!!
PUPPIES:
To see a litter of newborn puppies in your dream, is indicative of the amount of time that an idea has been developing or will take to develop. Look to the number of puppies to give you that approximate amount of time.
TEXT MESSAGES:
To dream that you are sending text messages, represents your connection to others and your network of friendships. The dream may also elude to romance.
THROAT:
To dream that you have a sore throat or have throat problems, suggests that you are having problems saying what you really think. You are having difficulties saying how you feel and conveying your thoughts. You may feel threatened when you express yourself. Alternatively, your dream may be telling you that you need to swallow your pride.
HOSPITAL:
To see or dream that you are in a hospital, symbolizes your need to heal or improve your physical or mental heath. You need to get back to the flow of everyday life. Alternatively, it suggests that you are giving up control of your own body or that you are afraid of losing control of your body.
SAND:
To see sand in your dream, signifies a shift in perspective or a change in your attitude. Consider the familiar phrase, "the sands of time" in which it may be suggesting that you are wasting your time or letting time pass you by.
LAPTOP:
To see or use laptop in your dream, suggests that you need to be able to reach out and communicate with others in any circumstance.
Alright, I can't 100% say where it started out, but I was feeling fine in my dream with some of my friends. I then realized that my throat was starting to close up a little bit, but I ignored it since every once in a while I usually get sore throats and they go away. Suddenly I realize that the bottom of my throat is swollen (like huge, 6in at least out of my neck) and super super sore to the touch (think stinging pain) anyways I then realize that my throat/tongue is swollen almost to the extent of not being able to breathe. I then too realize that my nose is stuffy but thankfully I can breathe a little bit through it. I suddenly start freaking out showing the people I'm with ( I can't remember who it was) but my main concern was to get ahold of Electra and let them know what was happening. So a little bit later, after the initial freak out,the swelling starts to go down and I start to feel a little better. I, for some reason, ended up at this outside picnic area with a bunch of people sitting at or around benches. I had my new laptop with me and about the time I noticed the swelling coming back, and the stinging pain coming along, I dropped my laptop in the sand. All of a sudden some guy comes up and tries to take it, I freak out, but can't barely say anything because of my throat, so he just starts scratching the cover of it and then proceeds to start scratching the back of it and dropping sand into the hard drive. I start crying and my throat pain gets worse, and so finally I get ahold of someone to take me to the hospital, and I start texting people letting them know whats happening (because I seriously thought I was dying) anyways, I start to notice that my lower back is starting to swell just like underneath my throat was, and stinging really bad to the touch. I don't know what exactly happened on my way to the hospital, but we took a side trip to take me back home because my stepdad was there and I wanted him to see my throat and help me. So, I'm standing in my room,and in walks my mother. Now in real life my mother is a Nurse and follows doctors orders and takes us to the doctors etc, but in my dream she was totally against getting my medicine and wanted to do natural healing on me. As well as her walking in with some natural book, she is surrounded by a bunch of jumping puppies. I'm trying to tell her, with my throat swollen shut, that I don't need her help and that I'm in a lot of pain etc, but shes not listening to me and the puppies keep jumping up to nearly my throat, all crazy like. Finally I get her to leave, and I tell thom (my stepdad) what had happened. Thats when I wake up. What a weird dream!!!
PUPPIES:
To see a litter of newborn puppies in your dream, is indicative of the amount of time that an idea has been developing or will take to develop. Look to the number of puppies to give you that approximate amount of time.
TEXT MESSAGES:
To dream that you are sending text messages, represents your connection to others and your network of friendships. The dream may also elude to romance.
THROAT:
To dream that you have a sore throat or have throat problems, suggests that you are having problems saying what you really think. You are having difficulties saying how you feel and conveying your thoughts. You may feel threatened when you express yourself. Alternatively, your dream may be telling you that you need to swallow your pride.
HOSPITAL:
To see or dream that you are in a hospital, symbolizes your need to heal or improve your physical or mental heath. You need to get back to the flow of everyday life. Alternatively, it suggests that you are giving up control of your own body or that you are afraid of losing control of your body.
SAND:
To see sand in your dream, signifies a shift in perspective or a change in your attitude. Consider the familiar phrase, "the sands of time" in which it may be suggesting that you are wasting your time or letting time pass you by.
LAPTOP:
To see or use laptop in your dream, suggests that you need to be able to reach out and communicate with others in any circumstance.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Just incase you were wondering
Here's one reason I will be going to Tallahassee
and not Gainesville.
Point Proven.
Monday, May 4, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
Debt Free
well not completely, just yet. But after thoroughly thinking things through, I decided to take all my savings and put it towards paying of my debt. Tomorrow ( fingers crossed ) I should be debt free with express and a handful of points back on my credit score. wish me luck.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
if only if only
You know what I don't like? Telling myself I'm not going to do something, and then doing it. "your not going to spend money today..". I do.
"your not going to eat mcdonalds or any fastfood today.." I do that too.
" your not going to talk to a certain person because you realize how big of a jerk they are and you don't need it.." And I do that too.
But what I hate more is telling myself I'm not going to do something, and then HAVING to do it.. I ran out of gas, thus spending money for it. My blood sugar got low and I got off work too late to make something at home, thus fastfood it is. I do good not talking to a person for a certain amount of time allllmost on the brink of just deleting a phone number, and then they call me. text me. email me, thus having to be nice and chat back.
I wish I could be more specific, but I won't allow myself to.
I need a paper journal.
on a side note, I my dream love life would be a cross between Pam and Jim's in The Office (I know I know I'm obsessed but it truly is tearjerking listening Jim talk about Pam) annnnnd The Beatles "something in the way she moves" song. (We can thank good ole George Harrison for it)
"your not going to eat mcdonalds or any fastfood today.." I do that too.
" your not going to talk to a certain person because you realize how big of a jerk they are and you don't need it.." And I do that too.
But what I hate more is telling myself I'm not going to do something, and then HAVING to do it.. I ran out of gas, thus spending money for it. My blood sugar got low and I got off work too late to make something at home, thus fastfood it is. I do good not talking to a person for a certain amount of time allllmost on the brink of just deleting a phone number, and then they call me. text me. email me, thus having to be nice and chat back.
I wish I could be more specific, but I won't allow myself to.
I need a paper journal.
on a side note, I my dream love life would be a cross between Pam and Jim's in The Office (I know I know I'm obsessed but it truly is tearjerking listening Jim talk about Pam) annnnnd The Beatles "something in the way she moves" song. (We can thank good ole George Harrison for it)
Monday, February 9, 2009
wish list
I've come across some great books, that I want to list so in the future you have a reference to incase I need a gift of some sort ;)
Wishful Drinking by Carrie Fisher
Sex Drugs and Cocoa Puffs by Chuck Klosterman
My Horizontal Life by Chelsea Handler
Teleshop by Augusten Bourroughs
Fake Liar Cheat by Tod Goldberg
Dreamworld by Jane Goldman
The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold
ALL of the Megan Mccafferty books, Sloppy First, Second Helpings, Charmed Thirds, and Fourth Comings ( I used to own the first 3 books and read them till the pages wore thin but I forget who I loaned them to and now I want them back!)
A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess
American Psycho and Less than Zero both by Bret Easton Ellis
The Center of Everything by Laura Morairty
that'll do for now
Wishful Drinking by Carrie Fisher
Sex Drugs and Cocoa Puffs by Chuck Klosterman
My Horizontal Life by Chelsea Handler
Teleshop by Augusten Bourroughs
Fake Liar Cheat by Tod Goldberg
Dreamworld by Jane Goldman
The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold
ALL of the Megan Mccafferty books, Sloppy First, Second Helpings, Charmed Thirds, and Fourth Comings ( I used to own the first 3 books and read them till the pages wore thin but I forget who I loaned them to and now I want them back!)
A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess
American Psycho and Less than Zero both by Bret Easton Ellis
The Center of Everything by Laura Morairty
that'll do for now
Friday, February 6, 2009
I'm slowly starting to realize
Despite how much I try to quit, I'll always be addicted to McDonalds.
That although my handwriting is horrible, it is interesting. I'm starting to like it.
Change is money too.. I think I should start hitting up CoinSaver weekly.
Chocolate really IS the best comfort food, and to all you chocolate haters out there, well ... your missing out.
I truly can't wait to move. and shop for the new apartment :)
I'd be miserable without my bestfriend.
One day I will have a huge movie collection, and I'm slowly starting to build it now!
My new iclock has my heart, I'm not into super cool gadgets as much as I used to be, but I tell you... purchasing it was a total DO on the list of electronics to buy.
I feel bad our desoto mall is closing (gasp!) but I can't help but love the massive sales going on.
I need to be healthier. I work at a gym, its like good health is on a silver platter sitting right in front of me, and I just won't take it.
No matter what, I'll always be a fan of Britney Spears.
As hard as it is, I need to cut off Starbucks. $4.50 for a coffee? C'mon, even I'm smarter than that.
I think I'm going to go out and buy some new heels.
I still need a better wardrobe. I look like a homeless person half the time and the other half I'm in winter clothes (and I live in Florida? )
I miss painting my nails, and I miss the people who would paint theirs with me.
I never knew how small a newborn baby was until this week... they really do come out tiny!
As Republican as I am, I'm letting go of most of my angst towards Obama and hoping he does the right thing in office. Time will tell. I do miss Sarah Palin though :)
I love my work. I really do.
It was alot easier to become and stay tan when I was younger, whats happened since? I can barely keep a light tan.
The next couple months should be the best yet, as anxious I am to get out of town...I'm happy where my life is right now while I'm still here.
I'm at a crossroad with my hair.. I want to be blonder..but I also want to go back brunette. Ughh
That although my handwriting is horrible, it is interesting. I'm starting to like it.
Change is money too.. I think I should start hitting up CoinSaver weekly.
Chocolate really IS the best comfort food, and to all you chocolate haters out there, well ... your missing out.
I truly can't wait to move. and shop for the new apartment :)
I'd be miserable without my bestfriend.
One day I will have a huge movie collection, and I'm slowly starting to build it now!
My new iclock has my heart, I'm not into super cool gadgets as much as I used to be, but I tell you... purchasing it was a total DO on the list of electronics to buy.
I feel bad our desoto mall is closing (gasp!) but I can't help but love the massive sales going on.
I need to be healthier. I work at a gym, its like good health is on a silver platter sitting right in front of me, and I just won't take it.
No matter what, I'll always be a fan of Britney Spears.
As hard as it is, I need to cut off Starbucks. $4.50 for a coffee? C'mon, even I'm smarter than that.
I think I'm going to go out and buy some new heels.
I still need a better wardrobe. I look like a homeless person half the time and the other half I'm in winter clothes (and I live in Florida? )
I miss painting my nails, and I miss the people who would paint theirs with me.
I never knew how small a newborn baby was until this week... they really do come out tiny!
As Republican as I am, I'm letting go of most of my angst towards Obama and hoping he does the right thing in office. Time will tell. I do miss Sarah Palin though :)
I love my work. I really do.
It was alot easier to become and stay tan when I was younger, whats happened since? I can barely keep a light tan.
The next couple months should be the best yet, as anxious I am to get out of town...I'm happy where my life is right now while I'm still here.
I'm at a crossroad with my hair.. I want to be blonder..but I also want to go back brunette. Ughh
Monday, February 2, 2009
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Free Week
This week has been nothing but Free. Wednesday was the Free Fall Out Boy show at State Theatre. As you can see in the picture, Sam and I made it in the shots they took for it. Friday I got free tickets to the NFL Experience event at Raymond James. What an event that was, although I'm not hardcore into sports (i.e. I don't want to stand in line for hours to get an autograph, I don't want to take a picture of the Vince Lombaro Trophy or whatever the name of it is, and I don't want to learn about all the different types of footballs,clothing,shoes, etc the football players wear) but after the run around at the event, we got to take advantage of more free stuff at The Prospect/Acafool show. (yes.. same stage, one right after the other). Free pizza, family guy seasons, shirts, drinks and more. Other than the weather feeling below freezing..it was a good time.
I hope my life continues to be full of free stuff.
Friday, January 30, 2009
i never gave a damn about the weather, and it never gave a damn about me.
excuse me, but does this look/sound like what we here in bradenton have been getting all week? No. why the heck today? thanks mother nature.
A penny saved is a penny earned. I hate pennies, but it seems like I'm starting to become a magnet for change..its the only currency I have lately. Dear Lord, please let me save enough to move. I'm in dire need for a different atmosphere.
My dreams are back! This whole week I've had endless nights of dream after dream after dream. It feels good. Last night was a bit weird with old old friends in it regarding situations that are too weird for me to even write about, the night before I dreamt that andy bernard died in a racecar accident. (I won't go into detail, but my office obsession has hit an all time high) the truth is, I've seriously missed waking up with a hell of a story to tell.
I wonder if anyone else out there dreams like I do.
come on summer, hurry up and get here...
Sunday, January 25, 2009
as so it is..
when it comes to my mind, i'll be sure to write it here instead of rant to my friends.
Deal?
Deal?
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